Today Is The Day You Tell Someone You Love Them

 Today Is The Day You Tell Someone You Love Them

After reading my blog regarding My Ellen, Today Is The Day You Tell Someone You Love Them. 

The many, many wonderful texts, emails and phone calls I've received from everybody, reminds me of how much My Ellen was loved. It also reminds me of how so many people care about me. Me feeling loved is a great help in getting me over this tragedy sooner.

People I haven't spoken to in 20 years, have called, texted and emailed me with their good wishes. Even a very few Ellen and I didn't like for a long time. Well, the old saying bygones be bygones has a new meaning to me. It feels so good to have them back into my life. 

I have a lot of years left in my life (I'm going to live to the year 2038), and I plan to live those years to the fullest. 

Sooo, what about YOU? Now is the time to think about the people in your life. Even those who you haven't spoke to in many, many years. Even the ones that, for whatever reason, you had a bad break-up with. Because;

Today Is The Day You Tell Someone You Love Them

My Ellen

My Ellen

It was a regular Monday. Ellen got up, took a shower, went to play Mahjong with friends at noon. At 3 we went to the movies with friends. 15 minutes into the movie, My Ellen told me she didn't feel good and went to the bathroom. 10 minutes later, she did not return, and I went to find her. She was sitting on a sofa and said she needed to leave.

She was driving home when she said she needed to go to the hospital. We were 5 minutes away from the hospital when she blacked out while driving. I couldn't get to the brake to stop the car, so I took the steering wheel and turned up into a bunch of bushes.

The ambulance came and took her to the hospital. When she got to the hospital she died in the ER, but they were able to revive her. She had a heart attack because of a major blockage in one artery. They had to open her up in the OR and she died again. This time it took 10 minutes to revive her.

I saw her that night, but she was not breathing on her own and some of her organs were shutting down. The next day I talked to the doctor, and he said they would do everything they could to keep her alive. However, he also said she might not make it in 24 hours.

My Ellen died at 1:50am Wednesday morning. 

Sooo, many friends, family and people she just met, loved My Ellen. Words can't describe how much I loved her and how much she made my life better and happier. She came into my life at a time I needed someone like her the most. I had 36 wonderful years with My Ellen. 

There are so many things I'll miss about her. As some of you know, My Ellen was a great cook. I guess I'll never eat that good again (I can't even fry and egg). Who is going to cut my hair? Who is going to put me in my place when I act out? Who is going to hug me when I'm down? Who is going to...............?

Everyone who is reading this blog and knew Ellen, are happy she came into their lives. Her positive energy and love of life was felt by all of us. Remember her with a big smile on your face.

I'm so sad right now. Talking and texting to all of my well-wishers makes me sadder. Sooo, please give me a few days before contacting me. My good friends, Cindy and Jack are taking good care of me. 

In a few days I will be back living life (as she would want me). I love life and will always love life. I feel love from friends and family so I'm not alone. 

I hope all of you will now take the time to have a better appreciation of the people you love and the ones that love you. I hope all of you will now put aside the problems in your life and focus on the great stuff life has to give you.

I love you all, Kenny 

 

A Saying That Will Change Your Life

 A Saying That Will Change Your Life

If you've been reading my blogs, you heard me say: "love yourself just a little more than any thing or anybody else." Putting yourself in first position will enhance your happiness because you'll have more to give everyone else while you get what you deserve in life.

After therapy, I have lived my life that way. When my Ellen says: "which steak do you want" I say: "the best one because I truly believe I deserve it."

Then last night, watching an English movie, I heard this saying;

"To Love Ones Self Is The Beginning Of A Life Long Romance"

Wow, could you imagine believing that? It doesn't matter if you say it. It doesn't matter if you write it down. It doesn't matter if you think it. It only matters if you really believe it.

Believing it will make you bulletproof. At ten I used to say to a bully: "sticks and stones will break my bones, but words will never hurt me." Could you imagine not getting hurt by the outside world - bulletproof?

Could you imagine always feeling good enough - bulletproof? With having so much self-love, could you imagine never being afraid to take a risk or making a serious decision - bulletproof? Could you imagine never being depressed - bulletproof? 

"To Love Ones Self Is The Beginning Of A Life Long Romance" is life changing. Try It.

The killing Of George

 The Killing Of George

The Killing Of George by Rod Stewart

It looks like the Supreme Court is going to take away the rights of all women. Assume that happens, what's next? Are all Gay rights next on their right-wing agenda? I just listen to the Rod Stewart song "The Killing Of George (Boy) and it gave me the thought of what could happen.

"The Killing Of Georgie (Part 1 & 2)"

In these days of changing ways
So-called liberated days
A story comes to mind of a friend of mine

Georgie boy was gay I guess
Nothin' more or nothin' less
The kindest guy I ever knew

His mother's tears fell in vain
The afternoon George tried to explain
That he needed love like all the rest
Pa said, "There must be a mistake
How can my son not be straight
After all I've said and done for him?"

Leavin' home on a Greyhound bus
Cast out by the ones he loves
A victim of these gay days it seems

Georgie went to New York town
Where he quickly settled down
And soon became the toast of the great white way

Accepted by Manhattan's elite
In all the places that were chic
No party was complete without George

The last time I saw George alive
Was in the summer of '75
He said he was in love, I said I'm pleased
George attended the opening night
Of another Broadway hype
But split before the final curtain fell

Deciding to take a short cut home
Arm in arm, they meant no wrong
A gentle breeze blew down Fifth Avenue

Out of a darkened side street came
A New Jersey gang with just one aim
To roll some innocent passer-by
There ensued a fearful fight
Screams rang out in the night
Georgie's head hit a sidewalk cornerstone

A leather kid, a switchblade knife
He did not intend to take his life
He just pushed his luck a little too far that night

The sight of blood dispersed the gang
A crowd gathered, the police came
An ambulance screamed to a halt on Fifty-Third and Third

Georgie's life ended there
But I ask who really cares
George once said to me and I quote
He said, "Never wait or hesitate
Get in kid, before it's too late
You may never get another chance
'Cause youth's a mask but it don't last
Live it long and live it fast"
Georgie was a friend of mine
Oh yeah

We, as humans, should have the right to choose. We, as humans, should have all rights to our gender. If religious people don't want to have an abortion, they should have that choice. If religious leaders want to stop abortions and/or Gay marriage, they should NOT have that right. 

If the United States political leaders want to stop abortions and Gay rights, they should NOT have that right. 

Sooo, what can we do about it? Contact your political leaders (especially in the Senate) and tell them what the majority of Americans want: 

FREEDOM