End Of The Innocence

Some think our innocence ended when we came out of our mother's womb. I say bullshit. our innocence ended at different times based on our DNA, upbringing, and the effects the outside world had on us.

A three year old child who grew up in a safe, happy and stable environment has a long way to go before the child loses their innocence. A three year old child who grew up in an unsafe world where the basic elements of life (food, water, safety, etc.) was a struggle probably has already lost their innocence.

I lost my innocence at ten. I had to help the family financially and physically. I ran numbers for the bookies in the neighborhood so I could have a few dollars and not have to ask my father for money. At ten I worked in my father's sandwich store after school to help him and my mother get enough out of the business so we always had food to eat, air to breathe and shelter.

Even though I worked, I was a happy go lucky guy. I made time to play with my friends and laugh, laugh, and laugh some more. My dad was easy to work for and told a lot of bad jokes.  They were so bad you had to laugh at them. As an example:

"A drunk leaves the bar late at night and reaches into his pocket that has a big hole in it and says: "plumbs when did I buy plumbs?"

In my first book "Never Buy A Hat If Your Feet Are Cold" I stated "at ten I was poor, but I didn't know it - I was having fun. However, the reality that if something really bad happened to my father the family would be in big trouble took away my innocence.

I didn't think about the end of my innocence because I was being productive, helping out and enjoying what I was doing. I relate the end of my innocence at 15. I always hung out with guys and girls who were two to three years older than I. At 15 I had trouble enjoying the company of kids my own age or younger. Maybe it was because I had lost my innocence and was living like an adult.

I had a girlfriend who was two years older than I. She thought I was 17. One day while we were making out on her sofa, she said she wanted to go all the way. I, in a panic, said ok, but I need to go to the bathroom first.

In the bathroom I was so excited and scared that after I took out the protection every guy at my age kept in his wallet (you could see the round indenture on the outside of the wallet), I had an orgasm while I was rolling the protection on my member. 

I was so embarrassed and had to tell my girlfriend what had happened. She laughed, but I knew she was disappointed. She said let's just kiss and feel each other up. Well, after two minutes of kissing and petting I was ready to go again. Since I only had that one protection, she went to her father's drawer and took out a Trojan.  Although I didn't last very long, we came together and at that moment I believed I was at the end of my innocence.

When did you lose your innocence? What were the circumstances? Was it enjoyable, emotional or negative? How did it change your life (for better or worse)?

In my case, it was enjoyable not because of the act, but I now really felt I was a man. The downside was I became a man at 15 when most of my friends were still doing stupid things. I became more serious. I became more mature. I started thinking about career while my friends were only thinking about sports and how to get laid.  I guess that's the reason I got married way to young at 20.

Some of you are still in the age of innocence. If you're a teenager that's great. If you're 25 - 30 and living with your parents, it's time to come to the end of your innocence. There is a whole world out there to explore when you finally take responsibility for yourself. When your innocence is over, life will create many ups and downs - some good and some bad. However, that's what living life is all about. Being taken care of by your family is not getting the most life has to offer you.

Since I'm the one writing the blog, I get to speak out of bother sides of my mouth. Don't end your innocence to soon. Appreciate your innocence. There will be time to get serious. Just come to a point in your life when you know it's time to end your innocence and become a responsible, productive, life loving and happy mature person.

 

Innocence is a gift, but it also reduces the wonderful things life offers. When the end of your innocence occurs, make sure you're ready to appreciate those wonderful things and create a happy life.